Quick Awesomeness

I'm not going to be here for my sister's birthday. College sucks. SHe wanted to have a little shin-dig, but didn't think it would happen.  I was sad about not being here, so I brought Heather's birthday to me. Surprise Party! It was such an amazing success. My goal was to make her cry. It happened! Best Birthday Party I've ever thrown :)

Say What??

I've been so stressed about college coming and it's just around the corner!! It starts on Thursday and I'm feeling like I should be freaking out. I had so many things that I needed to get still and so many things that weren't even close to being finished by Thursday. When I talked to others about how everything is in five thousand different directions, I always fallowed up by "God sent me to Grace. He will make it work out." Little did I realize I was also trying to convince my self. That's just what God did though.

About a week or two ago I had nothing for college. I was in desperate need for things. I had no idea how was going to get these things. Mom and dad had to work all day everyday and Heather had to work sometimes, so I wouldn't have a vehicle. Plus, I couldn't go by myself because I didn't know what I needed. Then I talk to my sister who is going through problems of her own totally helped me! She sent me a college list. Yay! I had something to go off of, but I didn't want to spend a lot on on the wrong thing. Do I need the bed sheets to be stretchy (like Jersey) or do I want them to be normal. They were al small things, but even though Jersey is comfortable  does not mean it's the best. Apparently it stretches more and more with uses and decides not to fit the bed as well. I also had to worry about paying. My other sister started looking for coupons. It was awesome! I saved $20 dollars on a purchase because of that! When my coupon sister didn't have to work, she took me shopping and talked me through my spending. Between my sisters I have pretty much everything I need. Thank God for that! Something was still stressing me out though...

Just a couple days ago I didn't have any classes and I wasn't enrolled. I didn't even know if I had a place to stay! I FINALLY got ahold of Grace... I already had classes and I have an asian room mate! Say What?? I couldn't believe it. God did exactly what I told people He would do! Everything came together and all I can do is praise God because I don't know how else it could've ever happened. The only stresser I have now is payment, but I know God can help me through that too.

I may have acquired my first grey hairs through this, but I also got more faith in God. I am ready for college. I can finally say it. Bring on the next stage of life!

Stress Be Gone... Mostly-Ish

What's a good way to get rid of stress? Shooting your uncles and dad of course! Other people tend to call it Call of Duty, but that's to boring. It didn't matter that the world was out there. All that mattered was that I really suck at the game and I almost got a kill streak. That shows that I'm getting better :)

Next way to get rid of stress? Church. Singing those worship songs remind me that God is powerful. God's holding my hand through all of this. Then hearing the importance of obedience and the blessings that come with it. I am being obedient and going to Grace like God told me. I may be scared out of my mind, but I will always have the joy and excitement for going. 

And that joy over powers my fears. 

One last awesome stress reliever? Family Parties! My family is so fun and awesome that they just calm you down and you know no matter what, they will be there supporting you. I started out growing my first few grey hairs this morning. I ended up with a smile on my face, ready for a new day. 

The stress is definitely still there, but it's more at peace. What can I say? Life happens. 

College Anxiety

So, it starts. My High School days have ended and my next step starts. I've been praying for this my whole life. Now I don't want it to come, not yet.

I go to college in two weeks. Oh boy! I feel like I just through a bunch of emotions in a blender and added yogurt for a delicious emotions smoothie. I'm so excited and so nervous, so ready to be out and so ready to stay home. I still don't know what classes I'm taking and my college never called me back. I don't know how much I have to pay and I don't know how I'm going to pay. I don't have any of the things I need for my dorm (except for towels, thanks to my amazing aunt). But it's okay! God sent me to Grace bible College for a reason. I just have to remember to trust Him to get through these first very stressful moments of college. And hope that He gives me a very nice roommate.

So here I go. I have to grow up and move out. Ready to step into my own life with more freedom that comes with more responsibilities. It will be a growing experience that I can hope, no I can make, good. Let's go life!