Long Time No See

I'm back. I haven't written on here in forever. Life got in the way and I found Netflix.

I survived my first semester of college! My GPA is much lower than I wanted it to be, but now I know I have to work harder. And I will work harder. I just need to beat my procrastination. I didn't realize how hard it would be to beat, but it's really hard. I got this though :)

I've realized something since being back at school. I lost sight of God a tiny bit. Instead of having my path go directly towards God, I somehow angled it to go more toward school and friends. It's like I took a detour. I didn't realize how much this path was weighing me down until my life slowed down and I realized that I wasn't filled with as much joy as I was before. I didn't feel as much joy in anything I did. I have definitely started going through the motions. And it kind of sucks.

Knowing that I started going through the motions, I have to find my way back into going after God fully with my heart. I have to get off the path of school and friends and find my path to God. It's like running through a forrest to find a road. It's not the easiest thing to find, but I know I can do it. I just need to shout out to God and he'll send a search party to find me.

So life is rough right now and it's happening. With that I must go do homework and read my Bible. Keep living life :)

Childish Dream Fulfilled

Ran in the rain during a thunderstorm! Is it dangerous? Of course. That's why my parents didn't let me do it. That's why I did it in college. I wanted to do this my whole life! Playing in rain is just too good of an offer to pass up. So when I heard the rain come down. I got some friends together and we ran around and found some tiny puddles. They were fun! Then the rain died down. When I wanted to go out again the security guard, who is just a little older than me, told me to run outside because it was pouring again. It was fun and all,  but when I went out the third or fourth time, there were sheets of rain. The security guard to ld me to go and run! It was coming down hard! I didn't want to go alone, so I got more people to come with me. It was fantastic!! The puddles were huge. The gutters were making waterfalls to play in. All was great. Lightning made beautiful streaks across the sky and eight college students running around like chickens with our heads cut off and jumping into puddles. How did I get so lucky??

That Moment When...

That moment when you realize you have more homework than you thought. That moment when you understand that life gets busy. That moment when you realize your roommate might have forgotten every single thing she ever knew, by the look on her face. That moment when she remembers who you are. Then, that moment when you can still say this is the best time of your life and you wouldn't trade it for anything.

This is how my first month of college went. Man, it awesomely sucked. I went on my first five hospital visits within the first two weeks. That was interesting. Now I have so many close relationships from it. I have a few sisters and a brother. It's fantastic!

Then I stated thinking about my family. I'm close enough that I get to see my family a lot and still be living my college life. I'm dependently independent and I'm loving it! I get to go home and just relax. Then I come back to school and I'm welcomed with the same love as my family. God sent me here for a reason and I can't than Him more right now.

Yes, things keep happening and life is crapping on my good experience, but I just clean it off and move on. I have a lot of people to help clean off the crap. Plus, God is amazing at making things so clean that they shine. I only hope that I can take what I learn here and share half of it with the world.

Life is happening. And it is good with bad situations that make things better!

First Time For Everything

So, I had a day of many firsts. My roomy had to go to the hospital, so we tried driving her there. After driving in circles, we decided to call the ambulance. I've never called 911 before. It was interesting. Then they took forever to come and it sucked so much. All I could do was run into CVSPharmacy and buy my freezing roomy a blanket. Which she loves. Then I actually went to the hospital. First time I remember being at a hospital. It is not like in the movies. It may have some of the components,but I was slightly disappointed. We went back that night and all was good and drugged. The pain mess didn't work so we had to go back today. I have never had a friend so close that I had to stay strong for in a tough situation. We got to go home again, but it's going to be a long process until she is fully healed. Hod has brought is closer through this and if she has to go back to the hospital to night, I will gladly go with her, no questions asked. Please pray for fast recovery and awareness to the rest of the world. If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it. Here's to life with a living God. 

Blessings!!

Whew! I can breathe! I survived the first week of college. I even made friends!

My room mate is more than I could've asked for. She helps me get up and lets me just ramble on. I could easily see her being like my sister. She's so caring and so wise! She could tell me so much about God and she loves Him with all her heart. She went through so much crap in her life. Yet, she lives out God better than I do. How is that right? I have had an easy and simple life. I should be praising God just as much as she is.... Anyway, God answered my prayers. I was so scared I was going to get a grump bum room mate. Instead I got such a happy, loving one! I can easily call her my roomy instead of just room mate.

I have my core group of friends already. It was actually really hard to leave Grace Bible College this weekend. I had to talk myself into going back home. It's so weird. A week ago I thought my biggest problem would be home sickness. Now all I want to do is be at GBC with my friends, with my family. It's crazy how it feels like I've known them forever. It's been one week and that's it. I absolutely love it. I found my place. God gave me the perfect place to fit in! :)

My classes are actually quite exciting. I don't know the last time I've ever wanted to be in class when I didn't have to. It's not that I needed something to do (trust me, I had a lot to do), but it was because the classes were so amazing. The profs are all nice and I know almost everyone in my classes. How awesome is that? I have a public speaking class that I want to speak in. That's just wrong. My writing class could be a slight breeze if I stay on my work. And all my other classes have to do with the Bible and living out God. Before every class, we pray. It's so relaxing and awesome! I can't wait to go back Monday and walk into home and be welcomed by my new family. Thank the Lord for such an amazing place!!

Quick Awesomeness

I'm not going to be here for my sister's birthday. College sucks. SHe wanted to have a little shin-dig, but didn't think it would happen.  I was sad about not being here, so I brought Heather's birthday to me. Surprise Party! It was such an amazing success. My goal was to make her cry. It happened! Best Birthday Party I've ever thrown :)

Say What??

I've been so stressed about college coming and it's just around the corner!! It starts on Thursday and I'm feeling like I should be freaking out. I had so many things that I needed to get still and so many things that weren't even close to being finished by Thursday. When I talked to others about how everything is in five thousand different directions, I always fallowed up by "God sent me to Grace. He will make it work out." Little did I realize I was also trying to convince my self. That's just what God did though.

About a week or two ago I had nothing for college. I was in desperate need for things. I had no idea how was going to get these things. Mom and dad had to work all day everyday and Heather had to work sometimes, so I wouldn't have a vehicle. Plus, I couldn't go by myself because I didn't know what I needed. Then I talk to my sister who is going through problems of her own totally helped me! She sent me a college list. Yay! I had something to go off of, but I didn't want to spend a lot on on the wrong thing. Do I need the bed sheets to be stretchy (like Jersey) or do I want them to be normal. They were al small things, but even though Jersey is comfortable  does not mean it's the best. Apparently it stretches more and more with uses and decides not to fit the bed as well. I also had to worry about paying. My other sister started looking for coupons. It was awesome! I saved $20 dollars on a purchase because of that! When my coupon sister didn't have to work, she took me shopping and talked me through my spending. Between my sisters I have pretty much everything I need. Thank God for that! Something was still stressing me out though...

Just a couple days ago I didn't have any classes and I wasn't enrolled. I didn't even know if I had a place to stay! I FINALLY got ahold of Grace... I already had classes and I have an asian room mate! Say What?? I couldn't believe it. God did exactly what I told people He would do! Everything came together and all I can do is praise God because I don't know how else it could've ever happened. The only stresser I have now is payment, but I know God can help me through that too.

I may have acquired my first grey hairs through this, but I also got more faith in God. I am ready for college. I can finally say it. Bring on the next stage of life!